lies.
only tears understand how i feel.

worst come to worst. my dreams are gone. GONE.

FUCK THE WORLD.
FUCK THE PEOPLE.

sometimes, i dont know if i should really leave the crew alone.
when im doing my part, some dont.
when they do, i dont.
we're like falling apart.
some dont care, some dont bother. some wants t leave.
i always thought we're strong.
and these make our dream shattered.
i still have my passion.
i dont wanna give up anymore after xw "wakes" me up.
but its not wrking.
wads the point?



weather is damn hot i tell u. HOT. WARM. sunny cloudy sunny cloudy. ma de.

thursday lesson sucks. cos there's hist, phy and chem. CAN DIE. weather damn hot somemore.
MY FAV DRINK LEH? today nvr sell. ma de.
millie sprayed her "CLINIQUE" perfume at my armpit LOR. everywhere on my uni. ARGH. lol.
and cin ah, dont make the wrong decision. u should get wad i mean(: dont stresss! LOL.
jonwee(*think wrong spelling) didnt come tday. free period.
neo is so poor thing. nobody goes for his remedial. less den 5students in class. the rest PON infront of him. LOL. funny funny. laugh laugh. not funny.
"how can a pieces of paper become one whole piece of paper".
here we go!

firstly, he held on 2 piece of paper.
then he folded both piece of paper into four parts.
he put one of the paper in his right pocket.
then he asked rashid t tear the other sheet of paper into pieces.
after tht, he took those pieces of paper and make it disappear.
(he showed some face expression as if it really disappear but in fact, he was trying t put it in his pocket.)
then, he took out the paper on his right pocket and unfold.
tada* thats the trick.

he's damn lame i tell u. funniest teacher i ever had. LOL. -faint

and ytd, jarel asked me go eat shit.
i saw the tiger teeth guy!!!
i didnt know jarel likes t eat strawberry leh.
i thought vanilla. HUH HUH HUH.

YAWN. slping time. gd afternight.

lovemelovemenot.

always be the special one among all(:

i dont want anything now.
i dont want sadness
i dont want any troubles.
i dont want any quarrels between friends, boyfriend, family, outsiders.
i dont want t die either now.
but i still want t see the right path in my life.


life can be so beautiful.

its getting different.
its not getting real.
you thought tht i didnt give my best t u.
i dont feel like myself at all.
wad you see wasnt me.
its someone else.
i dont know how t love you the way she did.
i dont know how t get your heart.
and all i know is tht you love me like how u love her.
you wanted t change me.
you wanted so many things from me.
do you even love me?
negative side of me is all you see.




If you would be a tear in my eye I would try not to cry ever again, because I would be scared to lose you.

im sick and tired of everything. EVERY SINGLE THING.

he
sad
i
also
sad
.

actually
i
hv
been
down
lately
too
.

so
yah
.

make
no
difference.

i
feel
like
banging
the
wall
.

when is our crew getting back again.
i need a crew.

i feel so left out during dance tday.
maybe i know why.
but forget it.

not fit t be a dancer.

i
think
i
suck
big
time
.


many
people
hates
me
.
and
i
hate
them
too
.

i
feel
like
dying
.


help
.

i miss shermin. she's gng back tmr. can understand her pain. how i wish i can stop her from crying. ):miss u baby.

and MDM TAN AH, YOU GOT READ MY BLOG ONE HUH. LOL. SAY I DONT HAVE NU REN WEI HOR. lol.
my chinese teacher is so silly. LOL.

i feel lyk crying.

didnt attend school today. i slept for like 2 hrs ytd morning.
seriously, i dont dare t go t school.whoo, i sounds like a kid. but seriously,its making me so stress. i can day dream every min. wads the point of gng t school. ARGH.

have t face her, teachers, schoolwork. fucking sian. still have tuition ltr. wah. kan sian.

she might took your smile away.

ytd ending.

dope bboy gng back LIAO. LOL. xw's siannn liaoooo. LOL. cheebong. if im 18, ytd i sure go ahhhhhhhh! SIANN. i tio suan. LOL. ): i WAIT I WAIT.

they came for 6days and we only see them for 2days. SIAN.
anw, i think some ppl WAN BU QI LA. say alr still so childish. SPEECHLESS. ko lien ah.

floorskillz this evening. finals. ftc got in the next round but not the 8 rounds.
ITS OKAY LA. to me, u guys are the best alr. MUEHEE. jiayou jiayou(:
other countries won cos they eat diff things from us. LOL.
really man. all so big size. sporean all small small one. COS SPORE IS SMALL. SAD THING.

korean bboy DAMN ZAI AH. MA DE. thailand also. CHEEBONG.

the journey is sooooo longgggg but it seems sooooo shortttttt):

i miss G. G stands for who lehhhhhh? "GERALDINE" laaaaaaaaa:DDDDDDDDD

floorskillz this evening outside cine. dope.
muaha. xw wanna be a bgirl in two yrs time. LOL. funny funny.
espl ltr. police came t check those underage cos its past 11. LOL. i ran away im not 17 hor):
home.(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: its happy. not sad :D

tmr all the dope ppl. handsome and pretty ppl will be gng. DAMN SIAN. feel so ARGH! ):

drifted apart...

girls on bed(:

BEAMS
MILLIE! anyhow take!
aarrff*

girls. uh. i look cocky here.
millie and me!
mandaaa. the bday girl(:
SILLY GIRL!
x0

): tHeY aLl bUwEe mE):
manda and millie!

CANDID!

LOLxp


jen me millie(:


loves-




dinner time!
cheerios!
manda and her cousin. OMG. SO CUTE!
on our way t the playground!
walk walk walk. same steps.
swing swing swing!
turn turn turn. LOL.
back in her roommm.
MUEHEE!
EEEE..
goodbyees(:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MANDA! loves-
went over t her place for bbq(: took pics and I SAW THREE STARS IN A ROW JUS NOW!
nothing special actually but it was really nice.
manda's house was cooling enough. thanks manda for inviting! (:

ive so many path t choose.

i hope.. hope.

happy bday my beloved cat and rika! :DD lublub-

out t celebrate cat's bday with jarel, millie,jen, jord,lionel and vic.
coffee clubb! the country pie made me shit. LOL. ):
went for dance prac after tht. den went back t meet the girls.
jarel went home LOR! pouts-
k box. cat said i improved. LOL. ZOMBIE ZOMBIE! MUAHAHA.
memories. sad tht manda's not there. if not we gonna shout like hell.

after supper, went home.
cat darling, hope u enjoy ur day ya(: loves-

i want t see three stars in a row! :D

early in the morning ive t scold fuck for smth. FUCK.

and oh. met xw dear ytd for shopping. didnt really SHOP. lol. cos we were both late.
got our own cap. BWING BWING* lol. love it.
anw, went for some bboy performance ytd at espl after tht.
was really crowded and we couldnt find a place t sit.):
bryant came.
then after everything, met jarel and his friend and friend's friend for supper. LOL. meeheehee.
then home ma li home(:

All at once
I fin'lly took a moment
And I'm realizing that
You're not coming back
And it fin'lly hit me
All at once

All at once
I started counting teardrops
And at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone

(chorus)
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

All at once
I looked around and found that
You were with another love
In someone else's arms
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once

All at once
The smile that used to greet me
Brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just mem'ries
All at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone

chorus.

And that's all that matters now
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And it hurts me more than you know
All at once

nowiknowwhymywishdontcometrue.

been feeling very stressed up recently. been thinking alot. been very sensative too.
well well well. im gonna blow it awayyyyyyyy.

FIRSTLY, i AM SO SORRY. i need to fucking post out here cos i know some of you will read. i dont wanna shoot right into your face as i dont wish t quarrel. seriously, I HAD ENOUGH.

i know ive no fucking rights t say this. i may be the youngest but ive my limits too. AND i NEED t say. wad the hell wrong with going home early before you even START practicing? i understand how xw feels now. she doesnt has the right too. ya. but she managed to spare some time to give us a call. asking if we want t practice during 2,4,6 or 1,3,5.


get it?

now. IM having my O's. okay. not fucking big deal. i practice when ive got the time. Xw's having hols. she has lotsa time. she's starting school soon and she told me she'll practice like wad she is doing now. i trust her cos i know she dont jus PUT WORDS in her mouth. i thought of giving up on dance cos i canot cope with my school works but after xw's words which really came into my mind, i stood up again. and si si's wrking, studying. she practice when she has the time too. SHE NEEDS t go at 9 everytime we prac. she has no choice. im sure she wish t stay too.

shir, i know you got work. OT. you're busy. but at least, spend sometime with us. i read ur blog. u always have ur own stuffs t cope with. yes. we all HAVE it too. but dont let them get into your passion, DANCE. i mean if u come late. as i always late, we all dont mind i guess. its all bout gng home early.

lijun, we all know she's busy all the time. working at this age. we cant say anything. she's so much older den me. but she really prac with us as well whnever she has the time too.

ash, sorry girl. we left her out. there must be some reasons which i dont know wad. just wanna say sorry.

erika, she has been wrking for the VIPs. she had done lotsa stuffs for us. rmber we all sat down and talked about wad we were unhappy about? ya, no changes AT ALL. really thank her for doing so much for us.

NOW. excuses for gng home to do SOMETHING really pissed me off. giving an ans DUNNO pissed me off too. yes, im talking about fei er. i hope ure reading. wad kind of attitude is this?
ure's the one who always got the MOST excuses.whenever i asked u if ure coming for prac tmr, u'll say I DUNNO. DUNNO? SAY YES OR NO. WAD DUNNO? if u dont feel like practicing, JUS SAY NO. and if u say YES, practice too rather den sitting there doing NOTHING. u used to be so nice. so considerate. wad has got into you? wake up la fei er. don make me give up on you. ure talented. u know it. we talked about it ALOT of times. ENOUGH okay. ENOUGH.

im not pointing at anyone. YES. i have my bad points too. fine. post in yr blog. shoot me in the face. I CAN ACCEPT THE FACTS. i want t improve. i SEE SO MUCH HOPE IN SOME OF YOU.
im not trying t act as YUTAKI. who doesnt want their grp to be the best?


THIS IS FUCKING DAMMIT. I REALLY DUNNO LA.

out with jarel, xw and kel. caught BIG MOMMA 2! hahaa. was funny i swear. but pink panther was the best(: heh.

was slacking and crapping the whole day. LOL. alot of things t talk about after kel left. yeah. so im really happy tday. really(:

jarel, im so so so sorry. dont blame ur parents k. you know they care for u as well. as in dont just somehow becos of me, u got over with them. they mean well. cheer up okay? everything's gonna fine(:

met xw dear and si darling.
xw dear NEEDS me so much so i have t rush outta my hs for her.

went for yutaki's performance. BRAVO.
befr tht was some grp singing. damn, the guy's voice really nice. in fact all were good.
I SAW SHIWEI DANCE! MUAHHA! first time. LOL.

somthing to talk about.

i really admire yutaki as in as a dance instructor. without him, i wont be able t dance on the stage after new year eve performance. we would alr stuck to the da pump dance. without him, i wont be able t rule the stage. he's the one who let me face the audience, let me get rid of my stage fright.

he taught us wadever things he knows. rmber he was so so late for the very first lesson? he promised he wont be late ever again. he kept his promise and we were always late instead. he scolded us but he forgave us. he cares for us and for our life as well.

he made us perform.
he made us realised our dream by watching him dance, by telling us so much things about dance.
he lead our right path.
he made us dance.

girls, we should stop disappointing yutaki. stop being late and all for his lessons.
he's really really serious about us. we should be serious about him too.
im sure he wants t make our dream come true.

i see all this from his eyes.
he fulfil our dreams. and we should fulfil his dream too.
i nvr met this kinda dance instructor b4.
we all love him. hope he dont read my blog. LOL.

anw, my hs got one flying cockroach. lucky sis's bf was here.
EW. nights all. loves-

back frm ming and ping's chalet. HAPPY BDAY GUYS! (:
theyre 21. how nice. ):
lucky i got mrs chan and her hubby there. if not i'll be alone):
anna lim came. she's a really good teacher. she dont
recognise me la. my sec one sci teacher. she's still the same. with a son and a husband. heh.
and yes thanks mrs chan and her hubby for walking with me and waited for a cab(:

got dance prac b4 tht. man, torture. been 2weeks since i actually WARM UP.
muscles are tearing. wooo. nice.

having headache now. ARGH! and silly's having fever. take care yaaa. drink more water hor(:

dad: eh, the poly girl got show the face not ah? (the video)
me: got ah.
mum: AYE! show me leh!
me: i dont have it.
mum: wah sian. AIYER! tsk.

after 5 mins...

mum:aye, u really dont have meh.
me: no la! aiyo!
mum: den everyone watched b4, i haven eh. internet has ma.
me: nobody sends me leh.
mum walked away.
LOL. wth! MUMMY!!!!!!

things tht went in my mind will nvr get out again.

When we cannot get what we love, we must love what is within our reach.

although.. still..

rhino. noraini. rhino. MUAHA. i thought it was a dinosaur and tht fucking jordon kept laughing at me. she didnt come t school tday. i was SHOCKED. hah. tht bitch.

waiting for silly t come online. and yes, he's so so so nice tday. he taught me physics. how nice(: went for prac and he went for his. no speakers again): managed t borrow one again. next time must treat them drink liao. so bu hao yi si eh.

finally met up with the girls. haha. miss you all darling. miss outt ash and fei. still miss all thought(:

days passing like so damn slow. its only wed. slow. yawn. tired. gonna slp soon. nights all(: loves-


take me back t the start.